aliethatyoutellyourself asked: OMG, I loved your playlist. What are the names of these songs?
The Weeknd- The Morning and Lorde- Royals. Both slightly new artists. Enjoy!
I’ve just spent the past hour looking back on my old posts; things I used to be interested in and things that used to concern me. I opened this Tumblr account when I was seventeen years old. I was just two months away from graduating high school and I wanted something new. I was so inspired by fashion and beautiful people that I would submerge myself in fashion magazines and articles. I dreamt of running off to New York and living in a (very) small studio apartment while interning for a fashion magazine. My parents thought I was insane. Eventually, I put that dream on hold and prepared myself for college…in California.
My posts first came from websites like Lookbook or reblogs from other Tumblr accounts. I was still pretty fresh in the game and liked to keep it simple. The name “justsimplyjess” was created because I wanted my blog to eventually become simple, effortless, and easy- like my name. When I made the account I was also in what I would hardly consider a relationship (more of a fling, really). Like any other high schooler I would post passive aggressive notes aimed at him hoping he would read them. Typical. I can laugh at it now but my blog was, and still is, my escape and a place to vent.
It’s funny looking at my posts because I can remember exactly what I was going through at the time. But I can also tell that I was just posting things because it was what was “in” and what I thought people wanted to see.
My blog has taken a complete 180 degree turn. I am now twenty-one years of age. And yes, my interests have changed quite a bit. I have learned so much in the past four years. I’ve learned to do things that make me happy. I have so much more responsibility than that seventeen year old girl. My posts express what I am feeling, not what others are. Where I used to find beauty in color I now find in black in white. I do not reblog often- but when I do, I am completely inspired by it as an individual. I do not reblog because it’s “in”.
I’ve made plenty mistakes in the past, and learned from every one of them. I am still obsessed with the idea of traveling. I’m still a hopeless romantic, and still have yet to be in a relationship. I still have that weird idea that my love is waiting for me on the other edge of the world. But it’s a beautiful idea.
So often we are lost in our bills, maxed out credit cards, responsibility, our hands being glued to our phones, finding love, finding happiness, and the mess that we call Our Life. We forget to LIVE. We forget to enjoy this precious life that we have. We think the next best thing will make us happy. There will always be a “next best thing”.
Take a step back. Reevaluate where your life is headed. Spend some time alone. Travel alone. Turn off your cell phone for a few hours a day. Read a book. Take a walk. Change your daily routine and challenge yourself to try something new. Breathe. And love…
Your thoughts. Your dreams. Your desires. Your friends. Your love. Your life.
My blog is me. It’s what I love. It’s black and white, with a little gray matter in between.